Story by "Debbie"
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I just read J's story and could not believe the similarities I am
currently going through. I am currently under a neurologists care. I too
smoked pot one evening and have not been the same since. I never told
anyone I smoked pot. When it happened I figured I figured I was having an
anxiety attack while being high. But I have not been the same for 6
weeks. I went to the doctor and told them I was feeling "detached" along
with my physical symptoms I have been having. They gave me a MRI, Spinal
Tap and EEG. They checked me for multiple sclerosis, Lyme disease ,etc.
My spinal tab and EEG came back fine. But the MRI came back showing some
white matter. I have been going crazy every since. Since I learned of
white matter on the brain I have discovered that can be from from many
other diseases. I am having a lot of flu like symptoms, migraine
headaches and terrible memory loss, confusion and speech hesitation. Some
of the brain disorders have these symptoms too. I have been hoping that I
have a "medical illness" but after reading J's story I think it could be
the depersonalization disorder. I am at a point now where my
neurologists says he can not find anything wrong with me and my regular
doctor thinks I have disassociative disorder and had put me on Zyprexa.
I am angry that she thinks that!! I don't want to have a mental
disorder. I seeking a second opinion. Maybe I am wasting my time. My
parents have been extremely supportive of my current situation. If this
is from pot, they would be devastated and I will feel like I have ruined
my life. If anyone wants to talk with me I would really like it and need
it. "D"
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